Blessed

There are so many things that I struggle with right now, that it is very easy to overlook or forget for a moment all that I am blessed with. When worries of how I am going to pay all of the bills this month come up, I forget how blessed I am to even have a disability paycheck because I am unable to work. What if that paycheck were not there? What if I was unable to work, but nobody ever taught me that there was an option for disability? What if disability didn’t exist? I would be homeless, hungry, and cold! When it is hot or cold outside and I have to walk to the store because I don’t have a car, sometimes I grumble and complain because it is so hot/cold and I have to walk to the store, forgetting for a moment how blessed I am that the store is as close as it is, forgetting how blessed that I am to have money to go to the store with, and forgetting how blessed I am that I have legs with which I can use to walk to the store.
When my twins are screaming, hollering and fighting with each other, it is SO easy to forget how blessed I am that God gave me the two more babies that I begged him for, exactly when I was ready for them and not a moment sooner.

I am blessed in so many ways. I have four beautiful kids here on Earth. I have a beautiful baby boy waiting for me in Heaven. I have four grandkids who I love more than anything on this earth (and I am so lucky that they love me just as much). I have a home, I have heat/air/water/sewer/trash. I have a Lord, a God who never gives up on me, a God I can cry to, laugh to, talk to or just pray to. I have everything in the world and I am SO very thankful.

So next time I am stressing, worrying, complaining, I am going to try to remember to visit this blog post and remember just how much I have, especially at a time in life when so many others have nothing at all. Some people have much more than me, but some people have much, much less and that is OK. I need to be OK with what I have and learn to be grateful for whatever is the present and not what I think I need in that moment.

Thank you Lord for all I have. That’s all.